it's been forever. i need to write because it's been forever. i need to write just because it's been.

i'm tired of myself and the things i say. this is usually what i say and the sad part is it's usually right.

i'm simply tired of what i do to myself and the closest people to me.  i feel like i fuckup way too much.

but it's all good right?  i need a change. i hate how i write. i write with that same exact originality that every other person tries for, which simply makes it sound like the rest.  i hate the opportunities i pass up because i'm too busy looking down instead of up.  i hate the feeling that i'm a total fucking moron.  i hate the feeling that i hurt you and i cannot change that.  i read your blog habitually ravaging for an ounce of happiness because of my existence, but the only role i can play major enough to make the blog is pain and it hurts me.

i'm sorry =/

it has been quite a while

i just wanted to get on here to say i hate school

i miss some friends

but overall i'm quite satisfied where my life is right now

but i must admit when i hungout with sarah and sara at el maguey the other day it was pretty exciting and i miss us

i miss me and them and drew how we were in the beginning of the school year

and then katie once she came along (no offense intended for her, simply stating i miss times from before we hungout with her alot too)

but anyways yes

those were times to be missed

as much as i like to say it's carefree with that group, we all always have something on our minds

with jack and will and jesse and adam and then sean, logan, etc. it is generally all around hangout with no worries and that's why i like it more than not

eh oh well

life's pretty cool

jamie wants some guys he can always chill with though

not to sound or anything

but it kinda sucks that i don't have any guy friends that i can chill with whenever for the most part

well jack and sean and will and jesse and logan and them i can chill with most the time

but that's always a hassle cuz my rents be GAAAYYYY

just a cool friend like me but not too much like me cuz i hate those ppl

one i can chill with and won't call me out a whole lot

y'know tonight was random and unexpected =]

but i guess its whatever

result of extreme "lethargic-ness"

i think that means boredom

i hope so

NOW MY RENTS WON'T LET ME GO SEE FUCKING BRAND NEW EITHER

CUZ MY GRADES ARE BADD

AND I HAVE TO WORK